A Fiona Apple song that does fit me.....

Window

 I was staring out the window

The whole time he was talking to me

It was a filthy pane of glass I couldn't get a clear view

As he went on and on It wasn't the outside world I could see

Just the filthy pane that I was looking through

So I had to break the window It just had to be

Better that I break the window

Than him or her or me

I was never focused on just one thing

My eyes got fixed when my mind got soft

It may looked like I'm concentrated on a very clear view

But I'm as good as asleep

I bet you didn't know

It takes a lot of it away if you do

So I had to break the window

It just had to be

Better that I break the window

Than him or her or me

So I had to break the window I

t just had to be

Better that I break the window

Than him or her or me

Because the fact in fact

Whatever's in front of me is covering my view

So I can't see what I'm seeing in fact I only see what I'm looking through

I had to break the window

It just had to be it was in my way

Better that I break the window

Then forget what I had to say

So again I've done the right thing I was never worried about that

The answer's always been in clear view

But even when the window's clean I still can't see for the fact

That when it's clean it's so clear I can't tell what I'm looking through

So I had to break the window It just had to be

Better that I break the window

Than him or her or me

I had to break the window

It just had to be it was in my way

Better that I break the window

Then forget what I had to say

 I had to break the window

It was in my way

Better that I break a window

Then forget what I had to say

Or miss what I should see

Or breaking him or her or me